Sunday, December 12, 2010

25 songs

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write down 25 songs you cannot live without. You know, the ones you can listen to over and over and never get tired of. They don't have to be in any particular order. These are the songs that make you laugh, cry, think of an old friend, whatever the reason. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
(You are the best one, of the best have stolen my heart.)

2. Better Together - Jack Johnson
(it's not always easy and love can be deceiving, i tell you one thing, its always better when we're together)

3.Sunrays and Saturdays - Vertical Horizon
(We'll get to know ourselves again,And we'll heal our hearts,It's not that we're bad together,We're just better off apart)

4. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
(You were everything, everything that I wanted.)

5. Yeah Whatever - Splender
(Damned if you do,F***ed if you don't. Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful.)

6. It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects
(The walls start breathing,My minds unweaving,Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.)

7. I Try - Macy Gray
(My world crumbles when you are not near .)

8. Spolarium _ Eraserheads
(At ngayon Di pa rin alam,Kung ba't tayo nandito,Puwede bang itigil muna,Ang pag-ikot ng mundo.)

9. Migraine - Moonstar 88
(Nahihilo, nalilito, Asan ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?)

10. Lightyears _ Eraserheads
(Doesn't really matter where you are,It always seems so far.)

11. Mad Season - Matchbox20
(At times I do believe I am strong.)

12. Daydreamer - Vibrant Days
(Stare at the bright side.)

13. Eastpack - Vibrant Days
(if i change my mind...i'll close my eyes and be with you.)

14.Sundo - Imago
(Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo para hanapin ka.)

15. Everything - Michael Buble
(And in this crazy life, and through these crazy's you, you make me sing.)

16. Who Am I - Casting Crowns
(Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth,Would care to know my name,Would care to feel my hurt.)

17. Don't Change - Musiq Soulchild
(See I'll love you when your hair turns gray, I'll still want you if you gain a little weight,The way I feel for you will always be the same.)

18. Breathe - Michelle Branch
(Everything is alright,If I just breathe.)

19. I can wait forever - Simple Plan
(When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away.)

20. When I'm gone - Simple Plan
(Life is what happens while you're busy making excuses.)

21. I think God can explain - Splender
(It's alright, I'm ok,I think God can explain.)

22. Follow you down - Gin Blossoms
(I know were headed somewhere, I can see how far weve come.)

23. You belong with me - Taylor Swift
(Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time.)

24. First Time - Lifehouse
(We're crashing into the unknown,We're lost in this,But it feels like home.)

25. Save you - Simple Plan
(Tell me you won't give up,cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know,i'll be there for you.)

*No need to put part of the lyrics, arte ko lang yan. My songs are all about addiction to love, getting hurt and moving on. A roller coaster of emotions. Sarap pakinggan ng paulit-ulit-ulit-ulit while jogging/walking around acad oval sa UP. I mostly love number 1, pang happy ending.

**ako rin, makiki arte gaya ni joyce kaya ako naglagay ng lyrics. hehe! these are the songs that i listen to all the time, bago matulog, pagkagising, kunbaga paos na sila sa kakakanta dahil paulit paulit kong pinapatugtog. its all about heartaches, letting go, hope and most of all, love.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Game Over

3 December 2010, a date to remember.

I never imagined that it would be a prelude to a goodbye. It started so right (that's what I thought). I had a nice wake up call, we talked for about an  hour or so, then he promised to call me again at night. He did and we had a great time laughing and teasing each other. I never had an inkling that my night would end differently.

He said he has found someone else! I don't know what to feel. As if someone splashed cold water onto my face making me numb. Everything became hazy.

A few months back I noticed that he was kinda cold but I shrugged it off coz I don't wanna impose or seem too clingy. I was dying to ask him but held back and let things be as I don't have 'right' to question him.

6 long years or so that's how long this almost not quite game has been going on. In fairness to him he didn't tell me to wait but I can't help but hope. somewhere somehow I was hoping everything will be set right and I'll have my happy ending.

I was wrong and I was wishing for the wrong things. Lesson learned (the hard and painful way) a relationship based on lies, pretension and deceit will never lasts. Sure, it may take 5 to 10 more years but its never bound to be forever, it will come to an end.

I guess this is Game Over.

I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

So you're gone and i'm haunted
And i bet you are just fine
Did i make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Saturday, December 4, 2010


okay, let's play an exciting dangerous game!

it's called the almost-not-quite relationship game.

rules: you can text/ call each other and do what other couples do but no commitment. first one who falls; loses.

ready? set? go get your heart broken and your life messed up!

you wanna try?!