Birthdays and Morbid Thoughts

First of all, I'd like to thank everyone who greeted me on my birthday! To those who forgot about it, it's okay you can still make it up to me by granting my birthday wishlist 2012. nyahaha!

Anyhoo, honestly that day was a drag. I know, I should be happy on that special day but I have a 'tampo' on 1 person. They say, it takes only ONE person to remember and greet you and that would definitely complete your day. But sadly, that ONE person forgot or maybe didn't realize that it was my birthday that very same day that we were talking. Oh well..

On a happy note, I got 1 item crossed out in my birthday wishlist! yay! It's kinda bulky but I love it to bits! To my mom and sister, Thank you! Thank you!

Another thing to celebrate is the birthday of this blog. Gailieslifejourney is now 5 years old! Wow! It all began on a boring night of october 2007 when I chanced upon a blog... I've read it till the wee hours of the morning. It inspired me to start a blog of my own... to write what and how I feel, to share to everyone what I've been through and hope that others can learn from it, get insight and be inpired too. Wishing more years in blogosphere. To my friends and people who visits and reads this blog, a big thank you to all of you from the bottom of my heart. 

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November, this is it! The big move! 1 more day and I will be leaving... till now, my things are in disarray. Haven't really done some packing yet. As I said to some of my friends, I still can't picture myself living in Canada. Morbid thoughts are cropping up on my mind... thoughts of crash or other untoward incident pops inside my head that I don't see myself somewhere near Canada. Is this how I should really feel?! *sigh* You see I still have time to blog rather than pack my things... everyone's excited for me and I don't feel the same. I don't know... I just don't feel excited about uncertainty, about winter or maybe I'm not just prepared to leave the life I've known...

pag-ibig na wagas

me: (sending msg to the group) 

hellooooooo! kamusta na?! punta ko dyan next week. ano mga sched nyo?

tsaka tanong ko na rin kung alam nyo kung san ang PAG-IBIG. may aayusin kasi ko doon. 

let me know your sched. sana pwede kayo.  see u soon!

Nel:  hi! waah wala ako d2 s monday alis kame.. mag elnido kme letss go! hehe

• san kasi yung pag ibig lam ko kasi lumipat na sila. wait txt ko samin kung saan.
  
  
  Josh:  Gail sa Monday off ko. Samahan kita.. Hanapin natin ang pag-ibig. Nyahahaha.
  
  
  Nel: 

  Kung commute, sabihin mo suburbia right after pepsi. highway lang un. Dun nyo mahahanap ni josh ang tunay n pagibig
  
  

  me: sa

  masahan mo ko josh?! yay! wahaha! teka, san tayo magkikita?! tandaan mo sinabi ni renel. basta may pepsi may pag ibig. wahaha! thanks! 
  
  
  Shei: mga adik pa rin kayo no..namiss ko tuloy kayo bigla..hehehe.gail magkita tayo bukas dito ka ba?sana kasma din si mimi at josh...para bago ka naman alis magkita-kita pa tayo...wahahaha.. 
  
  
  
  
  awww.... namiss ko na rin talaga sila. almost 6years kami magkakasama... dami na naten pinagdaanan.lahat yun nalagpasan naten! Yun ang PAG-IBIG na wagas!wahaha! i miss my  crazy CRK family!
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

back to earth

this couple of months had been exhilarating... then it happened, one moment everything changed, all was forgotten. i had been in my own bubble that i completely disregarded what other people can do... i realized that i am not invincible, that everything and everyone is dispensable...

hello reality, i'm back!

2 things

Its been two months since I have not gone to work and submitted my passport to the embassy. I check for daily updates on our group and I get to see members that have their papers processed later than mine but already received their passports. While waiting I keep myself busy with other things.

There are 2 things that I think I am learning from all of this.

1. letting go - I am sentimental. I'd like to keep things especially from those who matter to me. I have blank papers given to me by my high school crus; or papers with crush's handwriting/signature/name on it. I kept it all. Years before I tried to let go but I can't seem to do it. As I am now preparing for the big move, I am slowly cleaning up my clutter... thinking that I won't need it anymore. I need to let go, I couldn't believe the trash that I have collected, there were playing cards from my dance partner, broken friendship bracelet from my 1st year crush, shades from my one true love-highschool edition, notes I've uncovered about a boy's misbehavior, my black heartache notebook, and the list goes on. I threw it all, letting go of all those unnecessary clutter. Frankly, I thought it would be too hard but I was able to do it. I'd like to start anew with my life, devoid of all those bittersweet memories.

2. faith - I am impatient by nature. I think this is the best practice for me to be calm, to understand and to trust in Him.... Not to panic or rush, that all will be alright according to His plan and to His time.

For now, I'll just patiently wait... 

Gailie's Dayoff Series: Boracay

Aside from swimming, there are a lot of things one can do in Boracay. Some of the things, I tried when I went there.

1. Food trip

Rumor has it that these are the best in town. Let's try and taste it.

Best Shake: Jonah's - I had Mango Rum. It tastes good but there was too much rum on it that it overpowers the taste of mango. My sister tried strawberry and it taste good.

Best Pizza: Aria - Its an Italian restaurant, its a bit pricey but this dish pizza is a winner.

Loco Frio - frozen cocktails. i love the bubble gum flavor with a shot of vodka. I had 2 rounds of those. I can't get enough.

2. Catch the fire dancers perform

I was in awe when I saw them. They were really good. When we had a chance to have a picture taken with the fire dancers, I can feel the heat coming from the rotating fire ball. 

                               

3. Seek Adventure

Adventure you say?! Well, Boracay has lots of it.

a. parasailing - it may seem daunting at first, but once you' re up... whoa! it has a calming effect. Everything is so serene up there. It gives you a 360degrees view of the whole island. 

b. zorbing - i thought i may get dizzy after trying this but no it happened so fast you won't have time to get dizzy. wahaha! imagine yourself inside a washing machine, spinning round and round but this time on a hill. we were tossed in every direction.

c. sea walking - the idea of walking of scared me at first. you just have to listen to the instructors direction about breathing and 'equalizing' you'll be fine!

d. fly fish - cling for your life, wahaha! just kidding.

                                            

4. Sand Sculpture  - Boracay is known for its famous fine white sand. What better thing to do than build castles and try your hand at sand sculpture. 

5. Explore

There are a lot of activities going on especially at night. Party people go bar hopping, drinking and dancing all night. Not my type of scene, while others dance the night away, I'd rather have my quiet walks by the beach and admire the sky. If its not your cup of tea either, there are coffee shops abound and diners where local bands play. You have many choices or maybe do it all if you have the time.

This was my second time to visit this piece of paradise called Boracay and I never get tired. There's something about this place that makes me want to go back for more. Now, I understand why my cousin goes back every year to this place (told you, being a wanderlust runs in our veins). Be sure to try out some of these activities. Enjoy the sun, sea and sand. See you in Boracay.

 

Birthday Wishlist 2012

Hello October, we meet again. As per tradition of this blog, I now present to all of you (godmothers/godfathers and friends) my annual birthday wish list. 

1. pocket sized devotional bible - my bible is so old. the spine is ripped, the pages are crisp. i think it would not last especially in ever changing season of Canada.

2. iphone5 - this item is consistent in my annual wishlist. I just hope this year someone out there would grant my wish. hahaha! #feelingera. well, there's nothing wrong in wishing. :)

3. perfume - i really love the scent of Issey Miyaki's L'eau D'issey Florale, i just have a hard time pronouncing the name of the perfume. wahaha!

4. old fashioned letters and cards (snail mail) - in the age of internet, YM, Skype, viber, bbm's very few people nowadays use cards and letters to communicate with their loved ones and friends. Its perfectly fine, in fact I often use those apps to talk to my friends. But once in a while, I really want to receive a letter, a simple postcard or note will do. Its a tangible manifestation on how friends find time to write, give advice and wisdom, offer encouragement, get in touch to update me about their lives. And I can always go back and read it again and again.

5. lomo camera - i want the spinner 360 so bad!

6. winter jackets - i might arrive during winter inorder to combat the cold. i need those jackets!  

7. backpack - i'm a backpack type of girl. all my backpacks have given up on me. i need a new one for my travel soon. i like eastpak's getter coat backpack. i wish they had color blue. but this one is just fine. 

I'll be leaving my comfort zone and venture to the unknown. Friends, please always include me in your prayers; prayers for safe travels, protection, guidance, blessings, strength. pray for me that I'll be able to find a job soon. I hope all my wish will come true! :) *wink* *wink*

Plans

Two years ago, my sister and I were talking about how we can save (money) and have a better future. With our aunts living in Canada, we have an opportunity to go there through Canada's Provincial Nominee Program. We took the assessment test online, and I passed, my sister didn't.

Honestly, I didn't want to go there. My mom said, its okay if don't want to go but I decided to pursue my application because I wanna pass up the chance that someone was kind enough to help me financially. I prepared the needed documents and submitted it to the embassy. I said to myself if I didn't pass the 1st step in the program then its a sign that I should stay here. It is also recommended to take a language test like IELTS before applying. I didn't do that. After 6 months of waiting the results came, I had my nomination. The next step is to submit my application to Canadian Embassy here in Philippines.

There's no turning back. I prepared another set of documents and send in my application. Little did I know that this was HIS plan for me. Things are not doing well at work. I was disheartened and unmotivated. I love my work; airport has been my life for the past 10 years but I guess all good things must come to an end. As I said, it was not my intention to apply and leave the country, but I suppose God has better plans for me. At first, I didn't understand it at all, I ask why?

Now, I know the answer, 'cause HE said...

...For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - 

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)