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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

A decades recap

Year 2000 was unforgettable. A lot of firsts had happened during that time. Here's a look back on the past decade; my exhilarating, exciting and tumultuous life at 20.

2000 HOPEFUL
believed it or not, I had my first love that year  (late bloomer much?!). I was full of hope, full of life, ready to take on the world.

2001 UNCERTAINTY
bid  college goodbye. I was excited and scared at the same to get 'out there' in the real world. I had my first job, (at a financial institution) not the field I wanted to be in when I graduate. I haven't figured out where I was headed.

2002 BITTERSWEET
had my first heartbreak.  :( and finally landed on the job I always dreamt of. I  started working at the airport as ground stewardess and slowly making a career. I guess you can't have it all.

2003 FREEDOM
I became independent. Moved out from the comforts of our house and lived at the other side of the metro. It was daunting at first, but it was a liberating experience as well. That same year, I harvested the rewards of my hard labor; first out of the country tour with my barkada.

2004 SACRIFICE
Along with the perks of my work are the downsides. One of it, is working on holidays like Christmas, New Year, Holy Week and the likes. It was my first Christmas/ New year without my family. I was welcoming the new year at the airport ramp, meeting families that were going home to celebrate holidays with their loved ones; when everybody else is on holiday mood,  I'm on duty, double time.

2005 OPTIONS
Quit my job at the airport coz I didn't see any growth in my professional life. Tried various jobs but I learned that you'll always go back to the one you love. I got an offer from a sister company of a big European carrier. I was a travel coordinator, my primary duty is to arrange travel documents of the employees'. I was running from one embassy to another, re booking flights, making hotel arrangements among other things.  Money does not equate to happiness, sure the pay is higher than my measly salary at the airport but that office job is not my cup of tea. I can choose to be practical and be miserable or I can be happy and penniless. :) And so, after 6 months (of office work) I handed my resignation. 

2006 LEVEL UP
Good news come to those who wait, got a call from an airline company and I was accepted to work as a ground stewardess aka ground staff. On top of that I'm a direct hire which means I'm not under a ground handling company, (an agency that provides ground stewardess/steward and other ground personnel to airlines) which equates to a decent pay and travel perks. Brought independence in a whole new level, I moved out of the metro and left my comfort zone. This time, I have to pack my bags and move to Pampanga. 

2007 DISCOVERIES
I think this was the year that I became full blown travel bug. I also got interested in blogging thus I started to chronicle my life's journey through this blog. I also spurred interest in photography.

2008 CROSSROADS
Learned how to swim, its never too late to try something new. And after all those hard work, I was able to save up and let my family experience the joys of traveling. It is our first international travel as a family. We visited Mickey  Mouse in Hong Kong, experienced eating egg tarts in Macao and see the mighty Petronas. As for my career, I have to face the most difficult decision of my professional life. When you're made to choose between power or principle, what would you do? I'm sure I made the right decision coz I can walk with my head held up high. I learned a lot that year, I discovered that I am 'strong', I was able to stand up to those 'bullies'. And I can overcome all those adversities with the help of my family, it also helped me strengthen my faith in Him.

2009 JUNKIE
This year, I blew up all my savings (as if I have one). Ha ha! most part of 2009, I was travelling. I'm a travel junkie!  I went to Bohol; Guangzhou, China and Cambodia. I get a different high when I travel. Meeting different people, experiencing new culture, sampling different dishes brings joy to me!  and a little misadventure on the side spices everything up. Also brought my 1st DSLR cam to document my travels and to practice my shooting skills. (skills?! am just kidding about the skills thing) he he!

2010 CHANGE
2010 rolled out slow for me. I jump started my 2010 on Chinese New Year (14 Feb2010) by exploring Northern Part of the Philippines. Travel always get me started and hyped. :) I also celebrated 3 decades of my life here on earth! 3 decades?!? Yes, I'm that young. 30 and thriving! I was able to ticked 2 activities on my bucket list (1) crawl inside Cu Chi tunnels in Vietnam; (2) try zip lining. Last year was also made for goodbyes. December of 2010, a 'friend' said his farewell to me. One of the most difficult thing to overcome that year. It was like giving up 5-6 years of my daily life. I have to slowly unlearn some of my habits; like chatting, constantly awaiting for his updates, mostly of things about him and me.  If anything came good out if it, I'm free. But still, everyday is a struggle but I'll get by, one day at a time.

The past decade  have its highlights and some lowlights. This is what life is made of, we have to deal what it throws at us and just hope for the best.

I'm ready to face another decade of challenges, struggles, triumphs, dreams and accomplishments. This is how I roll. Let's get it on! :) \m/


Sunday, January 9, 2011

finishing strong

A new year marks the beginning, the beginning of everything. a fresh start, a clean slate, new promises, new dreams, a chance to correct whats wrong or to start over; that's why resolutions are the 'in' thing during new year. 

For 2011, I have only 1 resolution and that is to finish strong. The zeal and passion that got me started (in doing what I will do) this year will still be there till I achieve my goal. 

It is my prayer to be able to finish strong. I may falter along the way but I pray that HE will give me strenght to overcome obstacles, wisdom to discern the right path, may HE guide me all my days. 

So, here's to a new year! Cheers! Be the best you can be! :) God Bless us all!




Saturday, January 8, 2011

Better not bitter

Despite everything that had happened a last month, I can say that I continue to look at the bright side of things. Its high time to let go. I've been holding on for too long, letting opportunities pass by.

I can't force someone to stay if they didn't want to. I'm letting go and letting  God. I'm moving on. I will be better and not bitter.

Praying for a blessed new year ahead.





It's all right, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain,
I believe I’m the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm O.K.,

I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get over it yet,

I'm so much better than you guessed,
I'm so much bigger than you guessed,
I'm so much brighter than you guessed.



It's alright, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get off of your back,

I think God can explain.



Tuesday, January 4, 2011

shattered



How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around



Sunday, December 12, 2010

25 songs

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write down 25 songs you cannot live without. You know, the ones you can listen to over and over and never get tired of. They don't have to be in any particular order. These are the songs that make you laugh, cry, think of an old friend, whatever the reason. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.



1. Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
(You are the best one, of the best ones....you have stolen my heart.)

2. Better Together - Jack Johnson
(it's not always easy and love can be deceiving, i tell you one thing, its always better when we're together)

3.Sunrays and Saturdays - Vertical Horizon
(We'll get to know ourselves again,And we'll heal our hearts,It's not that we're bad together,We're just better off apart)

4. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
(You were everything, everything that I wanted.)

5. Yeah Whatever - Splender
(Damned if you do,F***ed if you don't. Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful.)

6. It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects
(The walls start breathing,My minds unweaving,Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.)

7. I Try - Macy Gray
(My world crumbles when you are not near .)

8. Spolarium _ Eraserheads
(At ngayon Di pa rin alam,Kung ba't tayo nandito,Puwede bang itigil muna,Ang pag-ikot ng mundo.)

9. Migraine - Moonstar 88
(Nahihilo, nalilito, Asan ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?)

10. Lightyears _ Eraserheads
(Doesn't really matter where you are,It always seems so far.)

11. Mad Season - Matchbox20
(At times I do believe I am strong.)

12. Daydreamer - Vibrant Days
(Stare at the bright side.)

13. Eastpack - Vibrant Days
(if i change my mind...i'll close my eyes and be with you.)

14.Sundo - Imago
(Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo para hanapin ka.)

15. Everything - Michael Buble
(And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times...it's you, you make me sing.)

16. Who Am I - Casting Crowns
(Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth,Would care to know my name,Would care to feel my hurt.)

17. Don't Change - Musiq Soulchild
(See I'll love you when your hair turns gray, I'll still want you if you gain a little weight,The way I feel for you will always be the same.)

18. Breathe - Michelle Branch
(Everything is alright,If I just breathe.)

19. I can wait forever - Simple Plan
(When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away.)

20. When I'm gone - Simple Plan
(Life is what happens while you're busy making excuses.)

21. I think God can explain - Splender
(It's alright, I'm ok,I think God can explain.)

22. Follow you down - Gin Blossoms
(I know were headed somewhere, I can see how far weve come.)

23. You belong with me - Taylor Swift
(Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time.)

24. First Time - Lifehouse
(We're crashing into the unknown,We're lost in this,But it feels like home.)

25. Save you - Simple Plan
(Tell me you won't give up,cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know,i'll be there for you.)



*No need to put part of the lyrics, arte ko lang yan. My songs are all about addiction to love, getting hurt and moving on. A roller coaster of emotions. Sarap pakinggan ng paulit-ulit-ulit-ulit while jogging/walking around acad oval sa UP. I mostly love number 1, pang happy ending.
-joyce

**ako rin, makiki arte gaya ni joyce kaya ako naglagay ng lyrics. hehe! these are the songs that i listen to all the time, bago matulog, pagkagising, kunbaga paos na sila sa kakakanta dahil paulit paulit kong pinapatugtog. its all about heartaches, letting go, hope and most of all, love.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Game Over

3 December 2010, a date to remember.

I never imagined that it would be a prelude to a goodbye. It started so right (that's what I thought). I had a nice wake up call, we talked for about an  hour or so, then he promised to call me again at night. He did and we had a great time laughing and teasing each other. I never had an inkling that my night would end differently.

He said he has found someone else! I don't know what to feel. As if someone splashed cold water onto my face making me numb. Everything became hazy.

A few months back I noticed that he was kinda cold but I shrugged it off coz I don't wanna impose or seem too clingy. I was dying to ask him but held back and let things be as I don't have 'right' to question him.

6 long years or so that's how long this almost not quite game has been going on. In fairness to him he didn't tell me to wait but I can't help but hope. somewhere somehow I was hoping everything will be set right and I'll have my happy ending.

I was wrong and I was wishing for the wrong things. Lesson learned (the hard and painful way) a relationship based on lies, pretension and deceit will never lasts. Sure, it may take 5 to 10 more years but its never bound to be forever, it will come to an end.

I guess this is Game Over.



I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

So you're gone and i'm haunted
And i bet you are just fine
Did i make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Saturday, December 4, 2010

game?!

okay, let's play an exciting dangerous game!

it's called the almost-not-quite relationship game.

rules: you can text/ call each other and do what other couples do but no commitment. first one who falls; loses.

ready? set? go get your heart broken and your life messed up!

you wanna try?!